Kar\u0131mla an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 okurlar\u0131na yazd\u0131m, hep e\u015fimle fl\u00f6rt etmek istemi\u015fimdir ama o hi\u00e7 vazge\u00e7medi, ancak bir g\u00fcn yine fl\u00f6rt ettik, p\u00fcr\u00fczs\u00fcz sikimi k\u0131\u00e7\u0131na koydum ve a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131 ne oldu dedim, bana olanlar\u0131 anlatt\u0131, akrabalar\u0131na her gitti\u011finde e\u015fe\u011fi ve e\u015fe\u011fi engelleyip beddua ettiklerini s\u00f6yledim. S\u00fcrekli ona t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fcyorum ve t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fcyorum <\/p>\n

E\u015fim ailesiyle her d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda eve yorgun geliyor ve o gece benimle yatmak istemiyor ya da yatsa bile buzdolab\u0131yla sevi\u015fmek gibi. E\u015fimin itiraf\u0131 Ben bu durumla kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ya kald\u0131m ve e\u015fime ailesinin yan\u0131na gitmesini yasaklad\u0131m ve yakla\u015f\u0131k 2 ayd\u0131r ailesini g\u00f6ndermedim. Kar\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6ndermedim. S\u00f6yledim. Kendisine bir hafta s\u00fcre verdim, evden telefon kablosunu kestim, cep telefonunu ald\u0131m ve sabah evden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda yemek ihtiyac\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131p kap\u0131y\u0131 d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan kilitledim. \u00fcstelik arkadan vermez. Onunla bir haftad\u0131r seks bile yapmad\u0131m. Hafta sonunda yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda Sibel a\u00e7 bir kurt gibi \u00fczerime sald\u0131rd\u0131. 18 cm’lik \u00e7i\u015fimi kafas\u0131na k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck daireler halinde yalad\u0131, sonra hayalar\u0131ma gitti, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na g\u00f6md\u00fc, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u0131s\u0131r\u0131klarla boynumu \u0131s\u0131rd\u0131, beni \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rtmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00d6te yandan \u00e7ok e\u011flendim ama ona cevap vermemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Bana neden so\u011fuk davrand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sordu\u011funda, ona hala cevap alamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6yledim. Sibel a\u011flad\u0131 ve ona a\u011flaman\u0131n bir anlam\u0131 yok, bana do\u011fruyu s\u00f6yle, \u015fimdi seninle fl\u00f6rt edece\u011fim dedim. S\u0130bel: E\u015fim bana en \u00f6nemli soruyu sordu, anlat\u0131rsam evlili\u011fim biter, ailemle t\u00fcm ba\u011flar\u0131m kopar. \u00f6nce.<\/p>\n

Ailemizde ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131k oldu\u011funu ona nas\u0131l s\u00f6yleyebilirim? O tam bir manyak, osuruktan ablamla, benimle ve annemizle oturam\u0131yor, ben bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken ahmet k\u0131\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 parmaklad\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fcm ona bakt\u0131m ahmet bir kere dinle beni sorma ben – a benden ayr\u0131lmak istersen anlar\u0131m ama l\u00fctfen yapma. ‘Bu s\u0131rr\u0131 kimseye verme’ dedim Ahmet’e: E\u015fime k\u0131\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 parmaklarken k\u0131\u00e7\u0131 gev\u015femeye ba\u015flad\u0131 ve al\u0131\u015f\u0131lmad\u0131k \u015fekilde gev\u015fedi. Bu s\u0131rr\u0131n ne oldu\u011funu merak etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Kar\u0131m bana d\u00f6nd\u00fc, sikimi a\u011fz\u0131na ald\u0131, \u0131slatt\u0131 ve k\u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 sikime oturttu ve her \u015feyi ald\u0131, hayret ettim. Sibel:<\/p>\n

Aaa bak bu e\u015fek fl\u00f6rt etmeye al\u0131\u015f\u0131k. Ailemi ziyaret etti\u011fimde \u00e7ok fl\u00f6rt ederim. Bu y\u00fczden yorgunum. Bu y\u00fczden yorgunum. Kendimi ok\u015fuyordum ve internet sitelerindeki resimlere bakarak yetiniyordum, abim beni yakalad\u0131, abim bana dedi, yoksa babama m\u0131 s\u00f6ylesem, her \u015feyden mahrum kalacaks\u0131n, o da ald\u0131. horozu \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 ve a\u011fz\u0131na koydu. Bana daha fazla katlanamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, beni daha fazla incitmeyece\u011fini, beni anneme verip yata\u011fa yat\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve yalad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi<\/p>\n

beni o kadar m\u00fckemmel yapt\u0131 ki, ben yapmad\u0131m. ‘Bilmiyorum ka\u00e7 kez titreyerek d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m, geri d\u00f6nd\u00fcm, k\u0131\u00e7\u0131mda karde\u015fimin parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettim. ve k\u0131\u00e7\u0131m\u0131n yava\u015f\u00e7a a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettim evde ikimizden ba\u015fka kimse yoktu. O an kopaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sand\u0131m, \u00f6lece\u011fimi sand\u0131m, bir s\u00fcre bekledim ve sonra bir s\u00fcre sonra anlad\u0131m ki b\u00fct\u00fcn zaman\u0131 harcam\u0131\u015f ama kal\u00e7am abimin rehinine \u00e7arpt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6zlerimden ya\u015flar akt\u0131. Yalvard\u0131m ama karde\u015fimBir s\u00fcre sonra sanki benden ho\u015flan\u0131yormu\u015f gibi<\/p>\n

onunla fl\u00f6rt etmemi istiyorsun. Yakla\u015f\u0131k be\u015f dakika sonra a\u011fr\u0131 kalmad\u0131 ve ben \u00e7ok zevk almaya ba\u015flad\u0131m ve karde\u015fimin i\u00e7ine girdim ve karde\u015fim daha fazla dayanamad\u0131 ve kanal gibi a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015felale gibi akmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. , ama s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n<\/p>\n

i\u00e7ime akt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ne kadar hissetti\u011fimi a\u00e7\u0131klayamam <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Kar\u0131mla an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 okurlar\u0131na yazd\u0131m, hep e\u015fimle fl\u00f6rt etmek istemi\u015fimdir ama o hi\u00e7 vazge\u00e7medi, ancak bir g\u00fcn yine fl\u00f6rt ettik, p\u00fcr\u00fczs\u00fcz sikimi k\u0131\u00e7\u0131na koydum ve a\u011flamaya […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":559,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sekshikayesi.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/558"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sekshikayesi.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sekshikayesi.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sekshikayesi.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sekshikayesi.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=558"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/sekshikayesi.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/558\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sekshikayesi.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/559"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sekshikayesi.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=558"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sekshikayesi.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=558"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sekshikayesi.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=558"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}